Gravity

I am kind of somber this week due to family issues and the death of one of my favorite bartenders at Flannerys. It just puts things into perspective. At any time your life could be up. I think back of how many decisions I have made that could have gotten me killed, from being irresponsible to down right foolish. But at every moment you aren't supposed to be thinking of death as your consequence.

For all of my friends that know me, know that i have an EXTREMELY hard time with death and I get bad anxiety. I just cannot explain it. And I cannot stop thinking of Mel. Thinking that I just saw her Wednesday and Thursday night. After the John Mayer concert we begged her to put some John on the Ipod and she didn't think twice about it. (Although she thought twice about Cheryl's Hannah Montana request) Now every time i hear Gravity i will think of her. Every time I have a strong Grey Goose and Seltzer i will think of her. In fact we went in Saturday night and I go to the front bar, she is not there, go to the back bar, she is not there. So we figure she has a night off. Until 15 minutes later we get hit with the news. Yes, I get it bartenders aren't peoples closest friends, some may think I am over emotional. But they are people you look forward to talking with and seeing when you go out and socialize with your friends. They are people who listen to your bullshit no matter what. They are people that make your day that much better with a nice strong cocktail to take the edge off. And in the end, they are people. They are some one's mother, father, sister, brother, aunt, uncle, etc. Any loss of human life is devastating. Especially when it hits close to home and someone your age. Thinking, when is it my turn. When is my time up...

I can't get into my normal comical mindset. I have cried way too much this weekend and have to get amped back up. In time my little puffins. In time....

-Miss Jackson

PS Make everyday count.

PPS Don't take the people you have for granted and appreciate what you do have, not what you're searching for.


Gravity
John Mayer

Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down

Oh I'll never know
What makes this man
With all the love
That his heart can stand
Dream of ways
To throw it all away

Oh Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can't sustain
Like one half could
It's wanting more
gonna send me to my knees

instrumental

Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can't sustain
Like one half could
It's wanting more
gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity
Stay the hell away from me
Oh gravity
Has taken better men than me
Now how can that be?

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where keep me where the light is